Poems by Emily Dickinson, Three Series, CompleteDickinson, Emily
poetry · Item 43
A reason to turn the page
They dropped my childhood name; now, choosing a throne, what happens to the self between what was given and what I claim?
Discovery 15 of 15XIV.
LOVE'S BAPTISM.
I'm ceded, I've stopped being theirs; The name they dropped upon my face With water, in the country church, Is finished using now, And they can put it with my dolls, My childhood, and the string of spools I've finished threading too.
Baptized before without the choice, But this time consciously, of grace Unto supremest name, Called to my full, the crescent dropped, Existence's whole arc filled up With one small diadem.
My second rank, too small the first, Crowned, crowing on my father's breast, A half unconscious queen; But this time, adequate, erect, With will to choose or to reject. And I choose -- just a throne.